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I Don't Know Everything (And Never Will)

The deeper I get into this sound thing, the more I realize that I don't know. Even after all these years of playing with sound, I still find new sounds, new vibrations, everyday. Playing the Gongs/Bowls/Bells can be compared to things like Yoga, exercise, etc. You don't practice Yoga, or workout, and then one day stop, because you have reached your ideal weight, or some sort of goal. If you do stop, for most people, everything that you worked for will eventually start to fade away. 

Playing the Gongs/Bowls/Bells is the same way. No one can ever reach a point where they can honestly say, “I've done it all, created all the sounds I ever can.” It's an ongoing process. The last few performances I did, found me doing a lot of things I've never done before and creating new and different sounds. While these things happened in the moment, none of them were by accident. They were all the result of years of hard work and exploration with the instruments I have.

I keep at it. I…

The Way of Mindfulness

The water is warm, with bubbles dancing on the surface. I immerse my hands and pull out a plate, feeling its porcelain smoothness against my skin. It drips a steady, diminishing stream back into the water as I pick up the dish rag, then make a series of steady swirls across the white surface. The little clumps of dried food are released and disappear beneath the bubbles. The room is quiet and I can hear my own breathing as I rinse the plate and position it in the drying rack. I repeat these steps with more plates, then cups, then tableware. There is a serenity about it. I focus on what I'm doing. The water is warm. The air is cool. These sensations dance across my skin. There is nothing else in this moment. I am content.


Mindfulness is just another term for paying attention. Too often in today's world we are constantly distracted by sights and sounds crowding into our personal space. We always seem to have our phone, our computer, our television, or some other distra…

The Alchemy and the Ecstasy

alchemy [al-kuh-mee] 

noun, plural alchemies for 2, 3.
a form of chemistry and speculative philosophy practiced in the Middle Ages and the Renaissance and concerned principally with discovering methods for transmuting baser metals into gold and with finding a universal solvent and an elixir of life.  2.
any magical power or process of transmuting a common substance, usually of little value, into a substance of great value.  3.
any seemingly magical process of transforming or combining elements into something new.

For me it's a ritual. I play these sounds, these vibrations—and I try to transform them into something else, something more. I also try to use them to transform my surroundings. This idea of transformation is really central to working with sound, as sound is a very strong and transformative force. Think about how you feel when you listen to your favorite song or composition. What does it do to you, to your state of mind, your feelings? 

Think of chanting, singing toget…

Every Step of the Way

This has been a long journey. My personal history with the Gong started over 40 years ago. This blog has been around for over 3 years/129 posts now. I haven't gotten this far without commitment every step of the way. Even when I'm tired, angry, frustrated, or any of a thousand seeming emotions, I can always come back to the sound. 

It is my life. 
It is my refuge.

I'm not as young as I was all those years ago, and carrying around all these instruments and stands is not as easy as it once was. 

I complain.
I Swear.
I wonder why I'm still doing this.

Atlas Shrugged
But it all becomes clear when I pick up the mallets and start bringing forth the sounds: “This is why I continue to do this.” Who wouldn't want to do this? 

It's magic. 
It's amazing. 
It gives so much back for the effort I put into it.

I have learned patience. I have learned devotion. I have developed a deep spiritual practice. And it's all connected to the sounds. It's well over 40 years now and I…

The Art of Devotion

Devotion is an often misunderstood word and concept. Most people think of it in a religious way, as in being devoted to some sort of deity. Or they think of being devoted to a spouse/lover/family. Or quite often, being devoted to a sports team, as in being a devoted follower. But devotion is actually different from that.

The word devotion comes from the Latin, devotus, which means to vow, or consecrate

vou/ noun 1. a solemn promise.
a set of promises committing one to a prescribed role, calling, or course of action, typically to marriage or a monastic career. verb 1.
solemnly promise to do a specified thing.

2. archaic dedicate to someone or something, especially a deity.

ˈkänsəˌkrāt/ verb make or declare (something, typically a church) sacred; dedicate formally to a religious or divine purpose.
Be Devoted

How many of us are really devoted to our sound practice? It's often easy to look at instruments like Gongs, Bowls, and Bells and think, “There's really not much to them. …

Your Life is Your Practice

Playing the Gongs/Bowls/Bells is a Journey. It's a commitment. It's a transformational experience.

The question is asked, “Where do I start?”

The answer always is, “Here.”
Here and now. Now and here. Here now. Now here.

There is only ever now. - Singal Rinpoche 

Too often there is waiting.  Waiting for the right time. Waiting for the urge. Waiting for the inspiration. Waiting for permission. Waiting for the fear to subside. Waiting for the world to welcome us. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.
But in the moment there is no waiting, just doing.
Waiting is passive.
Doing is active.
Make the time, take the time, to play your instruments. To explore. To practice. 

Bring your life into it. Buy food. Cook dinner. Wash dishes. Do laundry. Chop wood. Carry water. Play Gongs. Live your life, but pay attention to how everything is connected. Pay attention to how everything enriches your musical experience. 

~ MB
Chop wood / Carry water / Play Gongs™ 

Transcendence Is An Artform

When you reach the horizon, there is still the horizon ahead of you. - Singal Rinpoche
As a species, mankind is always striving for new horizons. We seem to have a restless spirit, that despite various set backs over history, continually moves ahead. It seems that we are predestined to not just sit still, but to explore and discover the universe around us. A big part of this is our personal universe, for we all contain worlds within.

As an artist, whether you dance, sing, paint, sculpt, or play an instrument, there is often this sense of the act of doing our art being a sacred sacrament. It's no accident that religions throughout history have used music and other arts as a way to reach the divine. If anything, the arts are a bridge to another world, to the heavens.

Who hasn't been moved by the exquisite motion of a dancer, the plaintive voice of a singer yearning for a lost love, the grace of a marble sculpture, or the way a painting reveals new worlds. There is transcendence in …

The Art of Deep Listening

Deep Listening—I didn't invent the term, but wished I had. The term actually comes from the late composer/performer, Pauline Oliveros. In short, deep listening is a way of hearing in which you are fully present. You listen to both the inner world (your mind, breathing, pulse, etc.), and the outer world (all sounds around you). The idea is to become fully aware of all the sounds around you. Through this heightened awareness, you become aware of sounds, and parts of sounds, that you haven't heard before. 

Oliveros said that “Listening is not the same as hearing and hearing is not the same as listening.” Hearing is a passive activity. We hear sounds all the time: traffic, the TV, birds, etc. And for most of it, we don't really pay attention—it's just background noise that blends into our environment. Active listening, on the other hand, is just that: active. We become participants in and with the sound. We notice our sonic environment and how it exists around us. We also l…

There's A Beauty In The Process

Everyone wants to be a Gongmaster. Not only that, but everyone wants to become one in a week or two. That's all part of today's world of instant gratification. But this instant gratification is an illusion. It's like fast food: it fills you up, but doesn't nourish you, so an hour later you are hungry again.

And so too being a Gongmaster. Ah yes, you took a weekend course and learned what you thought was all you needed to know about Gongs, Singing Bowls, or Bells. Now you called up a few yoga studios and are presenting sound healing or sound therapy sessions. Stop fooling yourself. You have mastered nothing!

The Destination Is Never The Goal

This is only the beginning of a life long process. The destination is never the goal. The journey to the destination is the goal. Think about life: the destination is death. Are we all looking forward to dying, focused on that event? No, we are all out there living, making the journey, and hopefully enjoying it. The same too with becom…

Giving Your Practice A Voice

As I always do, I had a Q&A/Sharing time after last night's sound session. If there is time, I like to offer this, because people often have questions about all the different instruments, how I play them, what made what sound, etc. We also share our experiences, as everyone's is different and personal. Experiences like physical sensations, spiritual journeys, or audio/visual stimulation.

Voice As Meditation

Part of this is people explaining what they heard. Last night various people said they heard voices. This is a two fold experience. 

1) Sound is deeply linked to memory. Often we hear things that sound like something we have heard before. In the case of the Gongs/Bowls/Bells, these instruments cover a very wide frequency range, and various sound/frequencies may trigger a memory of voices or vocal sounds. I have had people say that they hear singing, or choirs. I've also had people describe hearing strings or orchestras, which is a very similar type sound.

2) Hearing voi…

Art As A Spiritual Practice

If there's one thing long time readers should pick up from following my blogs, it's that I see my art as a spiritual practice.
A spiritual practice or spiritual discipline (often including spiritual exercises) is the regular or full-time performance of actions and activities undertaken for the purpose of inducing spiritual experiences and cultivating spiritual development. - Wikipedia
In it's purest sense, spirituality has very little to do with organized religion. In fact, rather than being a group exercise, it is a very personal experience. Throughout history, artists have often been the keepers of a sense of spirituality in our various cultures. 

I look at my own path, one of being raised Catholic, then delving into mysticism (such as Rosicrucianism), and finally ending up where I exist today, extremely interested in Buddhist thought and practice, yet not belonging to any group experience or practice. 

John Cage at Ryoanji
Experience As Meditation

Like many before me, I have …

Gongs & Fingerprints

From this week's mail box, a question about fingerprints on your Gongs:

I was wondering what your opinion is on the accutonics position to never touch your gong because the oils from your fingers will destroy the purity of the vibration from the instrument. For those of us that do a lot of performances and have a lot of moving to do it seems rather difficult even if it were true. 

Have you seen this anywhere?
Ah, the dreaded fingerprints! Please realize that there are 2 very different sides to this story and that neither one is wrong. 

One side is the people who always wear gloves when handling and setting up their Gongs. They also tend to wipe them off often and even do a lot of cleaning to keep them looking brand new.

The other side, which I belong too, takes great care of their Gongs, realizing that they are very fine musical instruments. But we also realize that they are tools of the trade as it were. I have some Gongs that I've had for over 40 years. Some of them look as new a…

The Art of Nothingness

Continuing from the last post, once you strip your music down to its essence, what next?

You keep stripping things away until you are left with nothing. Nothing but your own essence, your heart, your soul.

“There is no such thing as an empty space or an empty time. There is always something to see, something to hear. In fact, try as we may to make a silence, we cannot.” ― John Cage, Silence: Lectures and Writings 
But as Cage reminds us, there is no such thing as nothing. Even if I strip away all the music and sit silently, there is still my breathing, my heart beating, and in true Cagean fashion, the ambient sounds of the world around me. And in my case, there is always my tinnitus, ringing away in my head. So matter how hard I try, even in an isolation chamber, there is still that ringing.

But I have learned to embrace this almost silence. I have also learned to make peace with the sounds I cannot take away. It used to be when I was playing a meditation session, I would be thrown off by…

The Art of Subtraction

Like most people, when you are young, you tend to want to overdo everything. That's especially true if you are a musician. Many young male musicians seem to be fueled equally by a desire to create music and testosterone. This mix can often produce a steady wall of sound, whether it's in a rock band, jazz band, or even playing Gongs. Intensity has a great effect, but like construction noise outside of your window, after a while it gets ignored.

I'm all for intensity, but after a while, I got tired of it. I used to often play a solid wall of sound for an hour or more. It was big, intense, glorious; but so much the same thing. Over time I got tired of it. I also found it less than interesting because it was so one dimensional.

Over the years, I've steadily subtracted notes, all the while adding more sounds to my set up. I've also learned to appreciate and use space more. Space is as important, if not more important than the notes we play. Space allows the notes to be he…